What I Love and Hate About Myself

Now, the title might scare you a little bit, but I want to improve the things I dislike about myself. I’ll only say the major ones because I don’t need my self-esteem pitfalling.

What I love about ME

  1. My weirdness has always help me get out of awkward situations. On the 2nd, I had to say a speech in front of my speech class. The speech was literally about me being weird, and I was funny enough in my speech that I felt comfortable enough in front of 25 people.
  2. My love of books has NEVER stopped me from doing anything (small lie, I had a hard time learning the 16 “The”s in German class Junior year). I’ve had reading inserted into my brain since I was young.
  3. Throughout the past couple years, I have changed a lot. At the end of year 10, my grandmother died and that affected me so much more than I realized it had. I’m coming back from those changes and with some added features. I think those changes define who I am today.

What I hate about ME

  1. My writing isn’t all that good, I’m gonna be real honest. I know some of you might disagree, but I suck in general. I can’t write essays over the grade of 75%, my research papers always have “More organization.” or “Better transition.” People sugar coat how well my writing it. I know I’m not good, so just critique me! Help me get better!
  2. My anxiety pulls me away in situations where I honestly just can’t come back from. I have a slight speech impediment where I repeat a lot of my sentences. So, I just embarrass myself (RECENT EXAMPLE!! Where I work, we sell HUGE pickles. I asked if someone wanted them quartered. Well, I said it wrong by saying “3 quarters pickled.” *sigh* I’ll never be talk good (that was intentional).
  3. I’M NOT WITTY AND I HATE IT. I never had good comebacks, or just walk past someone and say “cute bag.” My brain isn’t wired to work like that.

 

Now, someone out there might tell me to hang in there, or suck it up, but no. You can’t make me. I will improve what I dislike about myself whether you like it or not, buttercup!

-Toodles

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In A World|| Preview of novel?

In a world, where people live on Mars, Earth, and Luna, the earth has fallen. Society has broken down to the point that no one likes it there, except one girl. One girl on Mars. She has fallen in love with the oceans, animals, and more of “The Golden Year.” A time thought to be the best years on Earth.

Before they moved off of it.

Now, the planet is in need of her assistance to help Prince Conrad remove his uncle from the throne. BUt, can they do it when he has eyes everywhere? Can Larissa Jonas help Prince Conrad with his neverending battle between him and King Redbird?

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Hey, sorry. I know this is a little cheeky, but I’ve been writing lately and I think I have something good here. I was DEEPLY inspired by Sailor MOon and The Lunar Chronicles. I’m still working out the rough edges, but it’s hard to do that when I have homework, class, and work itself.

Next term, I will be taking a fiction writing class, though, so that should be fun.

I was thinking about doing blogtober, but I got lazy and decided not to. :p Other than writing, nothing has really changed from my usual days. I hope to get a really cool post out soon, I swear!!

-Toodles

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Don’t Know What To Post? |Life Adventures

Hey, how’s it going?

I can’t think of anything to blog about. May as well, just ramble on about life.

I start school on the 25th, so that’s fun. I ordered my school books pretty late. So far, I have received 1 out of four.

I really want to push good quality content for you guys, so what I’ve been doing lately is revamping my Patreon. I have different rewards now, they might sway people more now. I think doing another collab with someone would be really cool.

I have been posting on my Youtube channel. Obviously, I’m awkward on camera still, but I hope you subscribe to make me feel more comfortable! 🙂

Tell me what you guys want to read/watch! I want to feel more successful on the internet. I’ve just been feeling like this’ll go nowhere, I’ll give up in a couple months because I’ve felt useless like no blogger wants me around, or I’m just not producing good enough content for my followers to read.

Anyways. Still don’t know what I want to post anymore. Might go on a small hiatus, but that won’t do me any good, because I WANT to post, but can’t think of any good ideas for you guys.

Sadness set aside, I hope you guys have an amazing day, good luck out there in the world.

-Toodles

Trying Something Not So New?|sned hlep

Late night post (my time. It’s 9:54 pm) but I wanted to talk before I started doing this.

Would you guys like to read short stories?

Now, I know I’ve written before, but some people prefer different content.

If I  would be doing this, it would probably be horror/thriller. Like something like Clue, where someone’s a killer and people need help.

I don’t know why everything that I do is like this, but I just love the idea of a hidden killer who murders everyone. It’s just a dumb obsession of mine lol.

ANYWAYS!!!!!

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One Year Blogiversary!

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has stuck with me throughout this long process of me figuring out my thoughts on life. My very first couple posts were me complaining about a lot of things.

Now, if you compare me to when I stared this, I’ve changed a lot. I have a job, my friends feel real, again, and I’ve matured to the point where I don’t need to complain about every other thing that’s going on.

I just wanted to thank you all for everything than you guy’s have done, even if you haven’t done anything. 🙂

SO, what I plan to do about the incoming month, might have to wait a little bit.

I might have to push back the start of Caitlynne (my channel). The camera I want is a little spendy and I haven’t really done any saving for it lol.

-Caitlynne

Dredlock Court: Night 5 and Day 6

“Werewolf, wake up. You might take this game. I have no clue what your strategy is, but it looks like it’s working. Who do you wish to kill?” The werewolf points. “Okay. I don’t see how that can really affect your plan, but whatever. Go to sleep.”

DAY 6

“Okay, you guys can wake up.” The alive wake up. “Okay, so after yesterday’s brutally long day, Sara was the one to die at the werewolf’s teeth.” “Denver, you have to listen to me. It has to be Jesse. Tanner said that she’s been talking throughout the ENTIRE game” “Yes, I know. I was going to vote her.” “What? No, it’s Harper. She’s barely talked. It has to be her.” “Yeah, but when Sara died, it hit me that you’re the werewolf, so yeah.” Denver looks over to Dublin to see if he’s correct. Dublin mouthed the person who was actually the werewolf. “Alright, well, vote.Each of Harper and Jesse havea vote. Dublin, who do you think it is?” Trina asks and waits patiently. Both Harper and Jesse point to each other. “I think it Jesse.” “Well… CONGRATULATIONS. Jess was the werewolf with Sam.” Everyone cheers except for Jesse and Sam.

Quickly, the lights turn off. “Again, really? Come on Dublin. You really need to fix thi-.” It is unclear who spoke this. Suddenly a scream engulfs the room. Then another.

The lights then slowly turn back on.

The screams from everyone were too overpowering to hear the yelling from Dublin’s parents.

The sounds coming from the basement were horrifying to see.

When the lights for the basement came back on, no one was okay or alright, because Sara and Tanner were nowhere to be seen.

End.

Schools: UK vs US| Collab with All The Jazz!!

Hey, guys! Just wanted to let you know that this was an eye opening experience. We live in very much different situations! It was great getting to know Jazz and how her school works. Enjoy!

Hello, world and all who inhabit it! I am Caitie and this is a very large collaboration with All The Jazz! We both wanted to do a collab and just so happened to be at the same time lol. I had a lot of fun working on this and I hope to do some more collabs with anyone!

So, in the beginning, we couldn’t think of anything to do. But then she geniusly came up with the idea for schools and we went with it.

We have similar, but yet VERY different school systems. Let’s get goooooooing!!!~

How it works:

Jazz: My school (well UK schools) are separated into terms. Like Autumn term, summer term, spring term. Each term is 6-7 weeks long, with breaks in between (Christmas, Easter break… ). We sometimes have exams at the end of terms, but only the important bigger ones like before Christmas break and before Summer break. In school, we have 5 periods/lessons each day. Two periods, break, two periods, lunch, one period, home. Nothing much to it! But my school does something I think only my school does…? Every Friday, we go in later. So instead of having to be in by 8:30am, we have to be in by 9:30am. So we miss period one every Friday. Hurray for lie-in’s every Friday!! This was all about secondary school by the way (12-16 year olds), I almost forgot to mention primary school! Nothing much to report there, the terms are the same, but minus the exams. However in year 6 (the year before going into secondary school) you do exams called SAT’s, they basically tell the secondary school you’re going to your abilities, and what sets you should be put in. It also determines how well primary teachers teach, if the majority did well, those teachers are doing well.

Caitie: So, I’m 99% sure that all American schools start in the fall and end in the summer with breaks in between. My school is on trimesters. Trimesters are when there are 3 parts (like pregnancies) of the school year. Semesters (2 parts) are more common in American schools, but I only have 5 periods/hours and way more time to do homework in class, while most schools have 7 periods/hrs. Each Trimester is about 12 weeks long, with 3 big breaks in between (Thanksgiving, Winter break, and Spring break). Every Wednesday, we start an hour later. Usually, we start at 7:40am and end at 2:40pm, but on Wednesday, we start at 8:40. It kinda sucks, because I’m more tired every Wednesday. At the end of each term, we have Finals. They’re pretty much end of term exams that can really be anything depending on the teacher. The first two trimesters we have two days of finals. 2nd and 4th period on the first day and 1st, 3rd, and 5th period on the second day. During the last trimester, the second and the first-day switch, so we only have a half day for the last day before summer break. Because I’m a senior, I end school a couple weeks earlier than everyone else. I have the 3 days before graduation purely for finals.

What we like:

Jazz: Well, my secondary school isn’t the richest in the world. It became an Academy quite a couple of years ago, so they no longer get money from the Government, and perhaps they’re not great with money management…? :/ My school is known for being quite a sporty school, they do a lot of exercise promotion and sports promotion, and take part in competitions. You also have a great mix of teachers who care, but it’s more like ‘we’ll only start caring about you when you start GCSE’s’ for some teachers. Before we go on a big holiday off school (longer than a week) we have an Awards Assembly where you get Attainments or Endeavors on a subject, depending if your teacher picked you to have one. You also get awards for attendance and punctuality.

Caitie: There are good and bad things about my school. 1. We’re poor as heck! 2. We have a crappy American football team, but everyone still goes to the games. Girls Soccer (football for the rest of the world) is pretty good, I have no clue about our Softball team.  Our Track and Field and Cross Country is pretty good. So is our Swim team. We always have people going to state for Swimming. We have a great Girls Rugby team. They got 3rd in our state last year. 3RD! The choir is pretty popular, too. Last term, I quit Choir because I was going through a life-changing time for school. I didn’t want to bog down the whole Choir because I was feeling sad. EDIT, While I was typing this up, I remembered that my choir got 9th in State on Saturday. Past two years we were top five(I personally blame the Juniors because they SUCK). When it comes to Band, we have a crap program. No one wants to fund the band because they suck, all of the students don’t try hard enough to become a better musician, so we are left with no money. Last year’s band teacher inspired many students to get better, but because she was new to our state, she got all of the diseases that she didn’t have before and got sick all of the time. Our school didn’t rehire her. We were very mad. ANYWAYS, The Arts is a good subject here. Our art teachers are very good at what they do, but they don’t get enough recognition for the school to be proud of them. I live in a city where the LGBTQ+ society runs rampant. Most of my friends are either gay, non-binary, or transgender. I also live in a town full of rich people, pot heads, or wannabe hippies.

Universities:

Jazz: Getting into uni over here is pretty tough. It starts from the roots…your GCSE
results. I guess what teachers drilled into our heads is right, they are the most important
exams we have to take because they’re the foundation of the rest of our lives really. Once
you get good GCSE results (and use them to get into a good sixth form/college) you have to do well in sixth form (16-18 year olds) and get amazing A-level and AS-level results.
Universities look at ALL of that, and you can do stuff on the side like The Duke of Edinburgh awards (google them if you’re confused) to get more of a chance. It’s really stupid, to be honest, it’s like as soon as you reach the last two years of secondary school, you’re thrown into a sudden whirlwind of responsibility. After sixth form, you can have a gap year to chill and do everything you want to do before you have to go back into education. Obviously
getting into university is MUCH harder if you’re interested in uni’s like Oxford and Cambridge. But that’s another story, I’m not gonna go into all that!

Caitie: Getting into colleges is somewhat tough over here. For tests for the state, we having pretty easy state testing that you have to do throughout Elementary school (Grades 1-6) and 11th grade. The Smarter Balance(SBAC) tests were pretty easy for my except for the math because GEOMETRY IS DUMB AND NO ONE NEEDS IT. Other than those tests, we have the SAT/ACT. They’re tests that you have to study for to get the score you hope for to go to that University/college you want to go to. Since I’m graduating from High School NEXT MONTH(I want to die), I have to make these decisions soon. I do not know what I want to do, yet. It’s okay though. Plans don’t always work out. In each County that we live in, there are a couple local community colleges that you can attend to get a two-year degree or start a transfer degree. You don’t always have to start going to college immediately. You could have a gap year, just to work and save up money.

I hope you all enjoyed this! If you aren’t why don’t you go follow Jazz? She’s a great person and would greatly enjoy some of you guys going to hers as well as me!

-Toodles

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